Thank U...

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U are the One who knitted me in my mom's womb..
Every inches of my cells U know..
U layered dreams in my head
U put arouse dreams in my mind
U stored blessings to flow into me day by day.
Even before I opened my eyes, U’ve prepared the grace for me ahead

Every ignorance, every fall, every failure, U knew
Every tear, every pain, every agony, every cry, U understood
Even before I cried out, U had listened

How could I ever be dissapointed to U, Lord God?
How could I possibly blame U?

For U're the One who understand me, inside-out.
For U are the One who guide me through my path, step by step.

And how beautiful it is when I always knew, that U're always there.
Watches me from above.
Just because U love me..





Big thanks 4 miss maria...
=)

A Thankful Heart.

Count your blessings instead of your crosses;
Count your gains instead of your losses.

Count your joys instead of your woes;
Count your friends instead of your foes.

Count your smiles instead of your tears;
Count your courage instead of your fears.

Count your full years instead of your lean;
Count your kind deeds instead of your mean.

Count your health instead of your wealth;
Count on God instead of yourself.

--Anonymous

A Time to Remember.

Tumpukan ilmu dan hasil fotografi ini adalah "saksi bisu" kegilaan angkatan kami dalam menghadapi final project (baca : tugas akhir) kali ini. Yes, this is our last semester. Dan minggu ini sidang evaluasi sedang berlangsung.

Semua orang kayak diamuk badai.. Frekuensi kunjungan ke perpustakaan kampus meningkat. Frekuensi ketemuan sekedar kongkow-nothing-to do jauh berkurang. Sebagian besar anak memasang raut muka tegang tiap bertemu. Wajar. Ini sidang penentuan. Kalau yang ini tidak lulus... Bonus extend 1/2 tahun... Congratz then, kata dosen pembimbing kami saat briefing TA jumat kemarin.

Dan disaat-saat seperti ini, semua orang selalu lupa. Bahwa yang terindah sebenarnya adalah prosesnya. Sebut saya gila, tapi saya menikmati semua proses ini dengan senyum dan hati tenang... Sebut saya gila lagi, tapi ditengah-tengah semua kegilaan ini saya malah terinspirasi untuk menuliskan kenang-kenangan buat si tugas akhir.
Hehehe.....

Belum... Saya belum selesai. kerjaan saya masih menumpuk.. Sangat sangat banyak.

Tapi melihat perubahan status anak2 di sebuah situs pertemanan paling hot saat ini.. Yang semua lebih kurang sedang mengidolakan yang namanya si tugas akhir itu (ada juga sih yang memaki.. yah biasalah. namanya juga perjuangan berat..)
Rasanya waktu-waktu seperti ini indah sekali...
Waktu-waktu yang ngga akan terulang lagi, setelah kita memakai toga nanti. Hebohnya ngeprint kerjaan dikertas selebar kamar kostan, hebohnya meramaikan perpustakaan, hebohnya memburu dosen (tanpa memikirkan betapa stressnya dia menghadapi puluhan makhluk yang minta bimbingan setiap hari), hebohnya kita saat saling bertukar info demi melengkapi bab 4 yang katanya harus lebih tebal dari bab 2....

These are wonderful things that time won't repeat...

"We may make our future by the best use of the present. There is no moment like the present."

Yeah... because these times wouldn't come back..
I thought then the best is to enjoy these precious moments...
Just soak in it...

Dan saya merasa... akan sangat merindukan momen-momen ini....

Gud luck guys....
This battle is ours to fight together
=)

Time to Leave.

I have to admit.....
That I hate this feeling....

Ternyata ngga ada yang abadi di dunia ini. Bahkan sesuatu yang kau pertahankan sekuat-kuatnya. Yang berasal dari dalam dirimu sendiri.

Ketika sudah tiba waktunya kau harus menyerah....

Dan saat itu juga aku berteriak...

Tuhan!!!
Kenapa cuma sampai disini kemampuanku???

Maaf, sungguh... maafkan aku....
Karena hatiku sakit saat mengungkapkan ini. Karena sesungguhnya aku ngga sampai hati..

Tapi aku harus...

Dan mungkin dari sini aku mulai beranjak.
Bangkit, dan mulai berjalan ke arah yang seharusnya...

Di luar sana hujan... Rintik hujan...
Dan disini... saat ini, telingaku penuh dengan lagu-lagu cinta...

Tapi ternyata hati ini bisa kebal... Ada waktunya untuk menutup rapat...

Sekali lagi maafkan aku...

"drink up, baby down
mmm, are you in or are you out
leave your things behind
'cause it's all going off without you
excuse me, too busy you're writing your tragedy
these mishaps
you bubble wrap
when you've no idea what you're like

so let go, jump in
oh well, whatcha waiting for
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown
so let go, just get in
oh, it's so amazing here
it's alright
'cause there's beauty in the breakdown"
Let Go - Frou Frou.

Another Beautiful Thought.

Landon : Hey. How are you feeling?
Jamie : I'm ok, how are you?
Landon : Pretty good.
Jamie : I have something for you.
Landon : You do?
Jamie : Uh hmm... Don't worry it's not a bible. It was my mother's. It's got quotes from all her favorite books, and quotes by famous people. Her thoughts. Come on.
Landon : Okay, let's check it out. Okay..."What is a friend? It's a single soul dwelling in two bodies." -Aristotle.
Jamie : Uh uh, right here.
Landon : Okay. "Find out who you are, and do it on purpose." That's Dolly Parton.
Jamie : I always thought she was smart.
Landon : "Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful."
From the film A Walk to Remember.

"More new lesson for today... Sometimes we must be reminded again & again.... Beberapa hal kadang membuat kita kebal. Beberapa membuat sakit hati. "Kesabaran ada batasnya." kalimat favorit ketika keadaan sudah diluar batas kemampuan diri untuk menghadapi. Ketika kita bertanya-tanya, what the hell turns him into that monster? Well, all u gotta do is breath in, just ask some more love from HIM, n every thing will be okay.Because often things would look different n amazingly much better when we start to think with love, act with love, and hope with love. HIS love definitely."

Because LOVE is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful.

=)

Quotes of the day.

"Coz life is a battleship anyway. So why we always tryin to escape from a battle?"
Jessica Maria Silaban



(Inspired by the path of my life these 2 weeks...)
=)

Ahh.

"Even all my anxieties have anxieties."
Charlie Brown from Peanuts.

Anxiety is a psychological and physiological state characterized by cognitive, somatic, emotional, and behavioral components.[1] These components combine to create an unpleasant feeling that is typically associated with uneasiness, fear, or worry.

Anxiety is a generalized mood state that occurs without an identifiable triggering stimulus. As such, it is distinguished from fear, which occurs in the presence of an external threat. Additionally, fear is related to the specific behaviors of escape and avoidance, whereas anxiety is the result of threats that are perceived to be uncontrollable or unavoidable.[2]

Anxiety is a normal reaction to stress. It may help a person to deal with a difficult situation, for example at work or at school, by prompting one to cope with it. When anxiety becomes excessive, it may fall under the classification of an anxiety disorder.[3]

A Peanuts Value.

Sebuah pelajaran dari comic strip ternama di dunia...
It's not too bad to be the one who helps, u know...
Orang besar adalah orang yang melayani sesamanya... Saya sangat percaya itu.
Have a good night
=)

"Kindness in words creates confidence.
Kindness in thinking creates profundity.
Kindness in giving creates love"
Lao Tzu

Quote of the day.

"when life's got you down all you have to do is swim, swim, swim, swim, just keep on swimming."

"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming and you just swiiim!"
Dori

how it have to be like this.

2 jam lalu saya menelpon sahabat dekat saya. udah dua minggu sejak percakapan terakhir yang lumayan lama, saya ngerasa saya udah ketinggalan banyak cerita.

Dan ternyata memang benar.

Pheeeewwwww........
all I can say is how life can be so complicated to each one of us. How life can be so hard. How can we all facing difficult times now on.

Different problem for different person.

Kata orang, masalah bagaikan medan peperangan. Datang pada orang-orang yang siap bertempur. Yang tujuannya adalah memperoleh kemenangan.
Katanya masalah adalah ujian yang harus dihadapi seseorang untuk menghadapi kadar kedewasaan yang lebih tinggi.

Saya lagi ngga bisa berkata-kata banyak.

Otak ini penuh.
Penuh dengan berbagai macam pertanyaan...
Hati ini penuh.
Penuh dengan berbagai macam perasaan....

Kenapa?

Apa?

Bagaimana?

Kapan?

Sedih...

Kaget...

Perih...

Luka...

Akan terjawabkah pertanyaan-pertanyaan ini?


Tulisan ini akan saya tutup dengan sebuah pesan :
Apapun keadaannya. Bagaimana pun sakitnya. Bertindaklah benar. Responlah dengan benar. Berpikirlah dengan benar. Berharaplah dengan benar.



"Always do right. This will gratify some people and astonish the rest."
Mark Twain

s i t e v i s i t .

villa dewi sri project.
canggu, bali.06.11.08.


foto-foto yang udah lumayan lama dicuekin di dalam foldernya. antara lain karena kelupaan dan sibuk dengan foto-foto lain yang lebih menarik (eg: penuh dengan muka orang dan badan-badannya yang beraneka ragam).

terlepas dari itu smua, saya suka foto-foto di album ini. jujur tanpa polesan yang berarti. cuma mau ngasi liat : "gini lho kelakuan ember waktu para tukang sibuk mengecat...", atau "gini lho letaknya sepotong kayu sampah, waktu para kontraktor lagi berantem..." atau bisa jadi, "ini nih, kelakuan anak KP waktu bosnya lagi sibuk... =D"

hehehee...

dan saya pun tersenyum...

for u, women.

Photographer : Toni Frissell, 1947



If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour. Allow your intuition(or spirit) to save you from heartache.
Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.
He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything.* He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behaviour.* Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job. Do not make him into a quasi-god.

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man.

If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships... there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship
consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted. -Isn't this TRUE!!!!!

Never move into his mother's house.

Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.* Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Share this with other women... You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another prepare.
Oprah Winfrey.

Quote of the day.

"Experience: that most brutal of teachers. But you learn, my God do you learn."
C. S. Lewis

a view from home.

While the sun was shy n decided to take a rest.
Until tomorrow...